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[bliumchik]

Sometimes I wonder why I'm so socially dysfunctional. It can't be entirely pessimism on my part. I mean, I actually really can't tell where any particular action of mine falls on the scale between "standoffish" and "desperate." I know it's a pretty big scale, because I can usually place other people's actions on it, but when it comes to me it's binary. I feel like I'm either not reaching out enough or too much. And if I can't tell the difference I have to assume I'm being inappropriate at least some of the time - luckily I seem to have a reputation for eccentricity so quite a lot of it is probably dismissed as "that's just maggie" but...

I know there's a crucial period in childhood when you have to learn language, or you never will. I wonder when the crucial period is for emotional language, and I wonder if it works the same way. Because I'm pretty sure I missed a few years of it, and I rely on instinct for pretty much everything, so having deficient social reflexes is pretty sucky.



My body wants me to do nothing but eat and sleep. I seriously think I'm going into hibernation or something. Wah, I wish I was a bear. Bears don't have to worry about how they relate to other bears... bears relate to other bears by swiping them on the nose and stealing their fish. Also they can sleep through winter. And sleeping through winter and the HSC and all my remaining time at school is looking better and better.

Comments

[sigma7.livejournal.com]

It's not you; it's everybody else. You seem perfectly normal (if unrelentingly awesome), albeit from afar.

[maggiebloome.livejournal.com]

Thanks, but I fail to see how it can be everybody else when it's all in my head. Besides, most people are somewhat more rational in writing than on the spot... like learning lines versus improvisation.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_fakeplastic/]

Everyone is crazy, I think, in their own little way. Most people go around filled with (perceived?) insecurities and deficiencies.
Most people are dysfunctional in some way or another. I don't think you are any more crazy than anyone else. Haha I dunno how helpful this us, but I guess I'm trying to say you aren't think only one.

[maggiebloome.livejournal.com]

Eh, thanks. Oh, that reminds me, I owe you some links.

The end of the worrrld!
http://www.endofworld.net/

And I don't know if you saw the vid I posted about Pachelbel?
http://maggiebloome.livejournal.com/215171.html#cutid1